Earthlings

I recently watched a film that turned my world upside down. It wasn't a surprise and it wasn't the first time I came to know this information. However, there is a certain power that films hold. They are able to connect with the viewer on a level like no other medium can. Visually and realistically the camera shows you a series of clips that transcend time. Whatever the images are they affect you because your eyes are taking them all in. Your brain send signals to your heart and soul and soon your whole body is being taken over by the power of cinema. To have this power is not just a skill but a blessing. For the amount of time the film plays you are in a different world. Out of all the films that I have seen in my life (which is a lot) this one made the most impact. It was the most horrifying 1.5 hours of my life.

Earthlings is a film that sadly defines what humans have become. With undercover and media footage, director Shaun Monson tells the story this planet never thought it would hear. It is undeniably hard to watch and will no doubt make you cry. Earthlings shows us how we treat animals and the earth. Torturing and killing has been a part of the human race since we can remember. This is no excuse. We no longer need to kill to survive. We no longer need to kill to be warm. We certainly never had or have any reason to torture other living creatures. If you disagree, than you do not deserve to live on this planet and call yourself an earthling. For it is people like you that has made this way of life possible and profitable and you should be eliminated.

Now if you are someone who feels that this behavior is wrong and needs to stop than I am happy there are people like you out there. It is our responsibility to take care of this planet and all the living creatures on it. Animals are earthlings too. They have the right to live a happy and healthy life just as much as we do. Humans think that just because we have more power we can abuse that power to create chaos, fear, greed and death. We don't. What makes anyone think that they can torture another living soul for no good reason? I cannot comprehend why someone would be this way. Maybe its because I could never hurt a fly or maybe its because I love animals. Or maybe its because I have a deep respect for all living creatures and the earth that we all share. People need to stop being ignorant, greedy and selfish because its tearing us all apart and in turn destroying everything.

I ask that you watch the trailer to this film to get a glimpse into the full length version. The trailer alone is a lot to handle. If you have already seen this film than I would never ask you to see it again. Once is enough, believe me. But what I will ask you to do is get the people you know to watch it and spread the word. I believe that if you see this film it will change your life forever. No human with a soul can watch the horrible things this film presents and walk away unchanged. If you are one of those people than I will say it again, you simply need to be eliminated from the equation. Its been said that it has turned people toward vegetarianism and I can understand why. After you see what these poor animals go through you will never want to eat them again or support this disgusting behavior.

The fact of the matter is, animals should not die for food, style or experiments and they sure as hell should not be tortured for our entertainment. What kind of people are we anyway? Is this something we should all be proud of? Because honestly, I am not proud to live amongst most humans. I am actually saddened and disgusted that some of you even exist. Does hunting small animals and deer with a gun make you a man? Why don't you try killing them with your bare hands and see what happens. You are all pathetic cowards. Does wearing fur and leather make you feel stylish and special? Well, I must admit its real stylish to wear dead flesh on your body. It's even more special to wear an animals fur that has been ripped off like a band-aid. You are carrying around tortured souls that were once our beautiful furry little friends. Can you smile about that? Does prodding and electrocuting animals when they are bound make you a good scientist? No. It makes you a murderer with a degree. Do you enjoy taking your children to the circus? Watching the clowns be silly and the elephants do tricks you never thought you would see. Well, think of all the torture these wild animals go through in order for them to be trained. Im sure if your children knew the truth they would be scared as hell to ever go again. Good!

Im sure some of you are thinking I am a little harsh with my words. Well, suck it up. Nothing is going to change if people don't see and hear the truth. It has to be in your face or it won't work. Its sad that it has come to these measures but it's no one's fault but the human race. There are too many heartless people out there who think they deserve the world and have the right to do what they please. We may have freedom as Americans but that freedom does not include making other creatures suffer for our greediness. Who the hell do you think you are! There are alternatives to everything and making better choices is a part of being an earthling. Choose faux over fur and leather. Eat vegetables and other sources of protein instead of animals. Test on humans and stop taking advantage of the earth's creatures! If something needs to be tested so bad than its probably not good for you anyway. Wake up and smell the flesh and blood that is being sacrificed here. Not to mention, the waste and excrement that is being forced into our water and land and making us all sick. This planet needs our help and we have to take action NOW.

You know I used to be a meat eater too. I didn't eat a lot of it but I ate it. There was always this feeling in the back of my mind that it wasn't right. I have always supported animal rights and was against fur, leather and experimental testing but I didn't know then what I know now. It is not to late to change for the better. For over 6 years I contemplated being a vegetarian and slowly made it to where I am now. Eating organic and using natural products has been a big part of my life since 2006 and I am very strict about it. When you are young you are not aware of the truth. You may think you know but you don't. There are too many distractions in your life for you to focus on issues that are bigger than you are. When you are an adult, as I am, you have no excuse. Get the facts, open your eyes to the truth and start making the best choices of your life.

If I was able to tie people down and force them to watch this film I would. It is that important. The images are still embedded in my mind. Did the film upset me? Yes, very much. Did it make me cry? Oh, yea. Did it get me mad? Yes, it filled my heart with rage. Rage towards all the people working in factories who torture the animals beyond belief. Rage towards all the people who raise animals just so they can kill them. Rage towards all the so called "sports" that hurt and treat animals in ways you wouldn't believe. Rage towards all the shelters who kill dogs and cats in ways that are unimaginable. Rage towards the human race for letting it get this bad and not having the strength and the intelligence to know better. For everyone that is supporting this behavior you should not only be ashamed but embarrassed as well. You are all the reason that this planet will soon stop turning. I ask you to please find it in your heart to fight for a better future. We all need to come together to make a difference.

Nature + Animals + Humankind = Make the Connection

Evolve for Change

You can get more information on the film and view the trailer here: earthlings.com

Good Things to Come

I must say that today was a good day. I have been feeling kinda blah lately but today really put a smile on my face. I have been sending out so many resumes it makes me sick. I ventured outside my box and answered some writing jobs as well. So far it paid off. I got offered a column on the Patch for Bellmore. It's a website that supplies local information and events. I pitched an idea and the editor, Jaime, went for it. I am so excited. I know its not a super fab magazine but it's my first paid writing gig. You have to start somewhere, right? My bi-weekly column (not sure the name of it yet) is going to have photographs taken by me (of course) of the area of Bellmore with some history or information about the subjects in the photos. I wanted to do something artistic so I can use my skills and help people view their surroundings in a new light. I hope to start next week!

I got back into yoga last week and honestly it has been lifting me to new heights. I love it. My body may be sore but I feel great and more centered. I was sort of losing it for awhile and needed a pick me up. Yoga has definitely helped me keep my head up and feel more confident. Not to mention, have a much stronger body (you should feel my biceps!) My recent decision to become vegetarian and eat more healthy has also really turned my life around. I feel happier and more peaceful.

I got a new project to work on today as well. The painter I work, Leonard Meiselman, with wants me to design a small catalogue of his work. Should be a simple project but I am excited to see the outcome. A second project came my way yesterday from Petite Picasso. A book order came in so I am heading to the office tomorrow to get it all scanned. Finally, some work!!

Today really showed me to be positive and not to let anything get me down. I am going to keep doing what I am doing and move forward with a smile. The resumes will keep on flowing and I am going to contact more newspapers and magazines for possible writing assignments. Wish me luck! I am crossing my fingers for good things to come.

I Am One Soul

These past couple of days have been dragging. There aren't any new projects on my plate right now and that is a little depressing. I always like to be working on something. Especially, since it's my only source of income. Looking for work hasn't been uplifting either. Resume after resume and no response. It really gets to you after awhile. I am sick of getting excited about a job and then hear nothing back. It makes me feel like giving up. Danny and I talked the other day and agreed that we should start looking for work in other states. New York doesn't seem to be doing that great so it might be time to move on. I answered some ads in New Haven and Philly. I hope to hear something back soon. I wouldn't want to move farther than the New England area so that is where I am looking. I guess we will see what happens.

I have so many things on my mind. It never stops. My dreams are crazy and I haven't been sleeping very well. I just want some peace of mind. I want something to change. I want to make money and not worry about my future. I want to be happy. I have a lot of things that almost complete the big picture. My boyfriend, Danny, is the one I plan on starting a family with so the search for me is over. I love my dog Olive and am happy to have a little buddy by my side who loves me. I am healthy which is always a good thing. I love where I live. My apartment is so comfortable and beautiful and I am grateful to have this place. I have a great family and a handful of awesome friends. Although, I don't get to see them much I know they will always be there for me. So what's missing?

I just want to make a living doing what I love. Is that too much to ask? I spent my whole life working towards a successful career in the arts. All my education and experience is in art and design. This is what I was meant to do. Even if I am able to write for a living that would be fine. I have many skills that I do not want to go to waste. I am awesome at what I do and I do not want to think any different. My confidence is at a standstill...

All my life I had a feeling I was put on this earth for a reason. I knew I was different from everyone around me. I always felt my mission was to experience life and share what I know. To use my voice and express myself to the world. The fact that I am skilled in the arts, music and writing only justifies my thoughts. The talents I possess would only help me to open myself up and push me to evolve at a faster pace. I still feel this way. Only now I have different dreams and expectations for the future.

Now that I am 30 and have found the man I want to marry I can't help but think of the future. I picture us having a nice house on some land where its quiet and peaceful. Surrounded by trees, grass and the sounds of nature. Growing our own food and maybe even selling some at a local farmers market. Having a couple of animals out back so we can give them a good home and a healthy life. I always wanted piglets so maybe 2 or 3. Two cows so they can keep each other company. And also some chickens...fresh eggs! This would make me happy. I would love to be able to work from home and continue to design and write. I would also like the same for Danny. I would also love to own a bed & breakfast. That would be an extra! I guess you can say I want a simple life. I just want a life of peace and security. I also hope to have the time to do the things I love like reading, traveling, cooking, playing music and being one with nature. I need these things in order to feel sane.

When it comes time to have children I hope to have a boy (Dimitri) and a girl (Brooklyn Lee). I want to be able to give them all the time in the world and not get stuck in a 9-5 job that will make me miserable. I plan on raising them vegetarian and teaching them good morals and ethics. Not only how to be a good person but to show them what the world around them really is. I will not lie to my children. They will know truth and because of that be able to grow up strong, smart individuals. I will surround them with books, music and art and share my talents and skills so that they can be the best at what they do. I will be open and honest about my life and choices so they feel comfortable around me and never hesitant to share their thoughts. I have so many high hopes for my kids. I just want this world to be a better a place to live in so that they don't have to clean up all of our mistakes. They deserve better.

When I was young I expressed my thoughts in every way possible. Whether it was through my art, my writing or my music, I always got my point across and people always listened. I was fearless and did not hesitate to experiment. I wanted to taste the world. I feel like I learned a lot among the years and still have no regrets. I am a passionate woman who will not stop for anything to be heard. Back in the day I was more reckless and did not think much about my actions. Sometimes I think how I am lucky to even be alive. Today I feel I am more grateful for having experienced the things that I have and be able to be here to tell the stories. I think that because I lived a colorful life I am able to truly be a vessel for sharing positivity with the world. When I learn new things and gain helpful knowledge I can't hold back from sharing it all. I am strong. I choose to speak for those who can't. I am ambitious. I choose to act toward evil and break it down. I am loving. I choose to help other people so that they can live the best way possible. I am smart. I choose to be heard through many outlets. I am hope. I choose to share my life experiences so people can see that anything is possible.

I am one soul. I choose to open myself up to the world and spread love and positivity. Its time for souls to reunite. Its time to break the cycle and evolve for change.

Why 2009 Was A Good Year For Me

This year brought me a lot of new experiences and amazing moments. I celebrated my 30th birthday in July and even though my party didn't end up how I wanted it to I was happy that I could spend it with people I cared about. Not to mention, the Fender Prophecy that Danny bought me. It was one of the most thoughtful gifts anyone has ever given me. (if you don't know, I have played bass since I was 15. For about 4 years I was in the band, Six to Eight Mathematics, and used a Prophecy that was given to me as a gift by a very close friend. About 5 years ago, we had a disagreement which ended our friendship. He took the bass back and refused to remain in contact with me. It was the only bass I was comfortable with so since then I wasn't able to play. They are also very hard to find which explains why I never had it again) So the fact that Danny searched and found one was a romantic gesture. I was so excited! Besides my 30th, I was lucky to celebrate my friends, Valerie and Meg, 30th birthdays as well. To watch these two ladies grow up beside me for the last 19 years is awesome.

In June, Danny moved in and it was the best decision we made. He is a great guy to live with. We also celebrated our one year anniversary on August 11. To reach one year together was a blessing. I am lucky to have him in my life and am grateful for every day he is with me. And like every relationship, we had our ups and downs but got through them with ease. To start 2010 with him by my side is an adventure all on its own.

October brought me Maine. I have been wanting to go there for years and finally my wish came true. Danny and I ventured out to Acadia with Olive for the 10 hour drive. What a road trip it was! It felt like my first family vacation. A full week filled with new experiences, beautiful views, silence and lots of time to rest. Thats what I call a vacation. Its something I will always remember and cherish.

Looking for a job has been an issue for the last couple of years. Its just getting worse and worse out there. Being a designer is tough. Especially, in a horrible economy. I am grateful for the freelance jobs I was able to work on and for the unemployment that got me through it all.

My father and I haven't had a normal parent/child relationship. Not having him in my life until I was 21 was a very big life changing moment. We remained in each other's lives for a couple of years then lost touch. This year has brought us back together again and I am very happy for that. My dad has had a very colorful life and is lucky to be healthy and alive. I am proud of him for turning his life around and moving forward with a positive view on things. Not only do I talk to him almost every day but I was able to help him design his new apartment and get his life back on track. I am thankful to have him in my life again.

Now for the little things:

- I have a lot of ink done but none of which was completed. Thanks to Nick Arena at the Devil's Rose Tattoo shop I was able to get my right leg done! You can imagine how excited I was to finally have a completed piece. I am so impressed and satisfied with the final results and happy that I have a limb dedicated to one of my favorite artists, Jeremy Fish.

- I am not a big fan of tv but am happy for the new shows that started this year: Glee and Flash Forward are my favorites. I am also excited to see the last season of Nip Tuck. Though this does not make me happy, this show is so great I am sad to see it go but I know the last episodes will be fucking crazy!

- Thanks to Facebook I was able to get in touch with some people from my past. From old loves to close friends, I am glad to know that they are all happy and healthy. People come into your life for a reason and when years fly by and they appear again don't take it for granted.

- I was able to finally update and redesign my apartment this fall. I am always thinking of new ways to change things and reinvent my living space. This time with a little more money we were able to get some new furniture and a new tv. The place looks stunning and I am so grateful we got it all done!

- Of course I am always grateful for the holidays and being able to spend it with my family. They are the best people around and it would not be the same without them.

So you can see by the things I mentioned that I am a thankful girl with a lot of positivity surrounding me. I have to be honest though and say that the most eye opening and life changing experience for me this year was choosing to be a vegetarian. This change was a result of lots of reading and time. For years I have always thought about not eating meat. Especially, since I love animals and support animal rights. I hate that I was a contradiction for most of my life. I will admit it. When I was young I was so consumed with the issues in my life that the world around me wasn't reality. Not that I was selfish, but my life has brought me many things to focus on and the food industry was not one of them. Being an art student, I had endless projects and sleepless nights. My work was my focus and most of the time my work was inspired by my life experiences. Yet, more to be consumed by.

I will say, that for a long time I was uncomfortable about eating animals. I was never a big meat eater anyway, mostly eating chicken, but there was always that voice saying "don't do that" in the back of my head. I was even grossed out by raw meat and didn't enjoy touching it. (which I still am) Forget about even picturing slaughterhouses and dead animals, the thought of these images made my cry. Not until I was out on my own was I more involved with knowing what I was eating and where my food came from. I started reading books on natural cleaners and organic foods and it changed my life. The year 2006 was when I started to make things happen.

Now, on the last day of 2009, I am so proud to say that I am meat-free, corn-free and on a strict organic diet. I have taken the steps that were necessary for me to be here today. All those years of wondering and not being fully aware brought me down the path of seeking knowledge and making changes that matter. The truth is, this planet is our responsibility. We were put here to live our lives and replenish the earth that gave us life. Its no one else's job but ours. As children and young adults we aren't fully aware of the horrible things going on in the world. People keep these horrible things far away from our ears and eyes creating this naive barrier to reality. This needs to change. As we grow up, that barrier starts to crumble because we are now living and working in the real world. As much as the government and big corporations try to keep that barrier from breaking, we eventually break through.

I love to cook. Always have. The women in my family all have the "food gene" and I am happy to be a part of that. There is one key ingredient to being a true cook or chef and that is to know where your food comes from. If you want to make healthy, yummy dishes you must use the best ingredients. That's a fact. Most of the food people make are not up to these standards. The "stuff" they are using are either processed chemicals or tortured, unhealthy animals. These do not make a good meal. Nor do they suffice for comfort food. Are you really comfortable about putting shit on the table for your family to eat? Well, thats what you are doing. You might as well give out plates of feces and hope for the best. You can bet I won't be coming over for dinner anytime soon!

I feel that our senses have taken over. Just because something tastes good doesn't mean you have to eat it. Its called greed and millions of you suffer from it. "Who me? Greedy? No!" Yes, you are. So wake up and turn things around. So many living creatures suffer and die just so you can have them on a plate. It seems so worthless. There is no valid reason for eating animals. Nor is there a good reason for eating processed food. You might as well get on your knees and pray to the big corporations who are feeding you. Sadly enough, they are your God.

I started my website, d+eco, to help people be aware of what they are eating and how to help the planet. I have a brain, therefore, I choose to use it. I have a voice and I choose to speak up every moment I can. I am fearless, I choose to act on emotion and good morals and spread the truth no matter what gets in my way. I am an inspiration, I choose to lead others in the revolution towards positive change. I have a heart that dies every time I think of an animal being tortured and people supporting that behavior. I have a soul, I choose to fill it with positivity and warmth and help the unaware and the weak. And despite all my anger and disgust for the human race, I still have hope for all of us.

So for 2010, I ask that you all get the facts and know the truth. Stop being selfish and greedy for once and think about the bigger picture. Take a look at yourself and start making changes. As you kiss your children good night, think about their health and their future. As you go over your bills for the month, see what you can live without and start spending where it counts. When you go food shopping make sure you read labels and if you don't know what it is than don't buy it. Explore new ways of cooking and add vegetarian meals to your weekly dinners. Think of all the animals that suffer and choose to help them suffer no more. Support sustainable farming methods and give the "farm" back to the "farmer". Once in awhile, donate to a charity and help make this a better place to live. Teach your children the truth without creating a wall from reality. Stupid, ignorant children are not strong leaders of the future.

This all may seem like so much to some of you. But it really isn't. This is the way we should all be living. These are the choices we should be making. These are the goals we should be setting. We are the human race. We are supposed to be the smartest race of them all. Its time we act like it. Evolve for change.

The Time is Now

Lately, I have been realizing a lot about this country that makes me sick. Its getting really hard for me to see any good anymore. You know there are many people that are oblivious to what is really going on and there are some that are aware but don't care. The others are a mix of people who are making a difference and others that want to make a difference but don't know how. First of all, it is easy to gain information. Besides reading there are a number of documentaries out there that you can rent or buy that will help you get insight into the world around you. I find film to be exciting and easy to follow so I watch a lot of them. I recently saw two that really pushed me over the edge; Blue Gold: World Water Wars and Walmart: The High Cost of Low Price. Both of these are well worth watching and I highly recommend you check them out asap.

I really wasn't truly aware of the water wars going on in the world right now. I personally don't drink tap water because there is fluoride in it. My boyfriend and I have Poland Spring delivered every month just so we could drink and cook with good water. After watching this film we have decided to cancel our plan. As soon as I find a good filter for our sink we will switch over. I want to get one that is safe and good for the environment and that actually works! It took this one film to change my actions. I feel it is important to make change as soon as you can. No procrastinating! Why sit on your ass any longer when you can make a difference today?

What this film has shown me justifies my feelings toward greed and power. Two things that are the root of all evil. Two things that are running our country and others into the fucking ground. This earth has a system folks. We all learned about it in school. Our eco system works just fine when we take care of it. Sadly, we haven't taken care of it in years and we are all seeing the negative results of that today. In simple terms, the earth has a limited amount of water. It will not go forever, especially at this rate. There are major corporations pumping and taking water from other countries, states and towns and making a profit. Forcing governments to privatize their water supply. Who knew? In an ideal world, we could all drink water that comes from our area and it would be safe and toxic free. But this is not the case. We are wasting our water supply more and more each day, plain and simple. Factory and industrial agriculture, housing and technology have affected how our eco system works and slowly but surely there is land everywhere drying up. Scared yet?

There are people out there fighting for their rights. Strong people who choose to fight the system so that they keep their rights and their right for water. In countries like Africa corporations are humiliating and killing their people for money. Can you imagine only having about a bucket a day of water? Having to pay 25 cents to flush your toilet? What if you had a fire and the fire department came and said, "oh well, we don't have the water to put the fire out, sorry". This is what is going on!! It needs to stop now.

I ask you to please see this film and read the book as well. Do more research and learn what you can do to help. If you care about this country and its water supply than I hope you will stand up and fight back. When people join hands and minds they get stronger and louder. Thats we need! We can make a difference but we have to work at it and we have to do it together.

It seems like this country is all about individual profit and gain. I see it everyday and it makes me angry. I am highly against big corporations who do not care about people, the environment and the country. There are a lot out there. One of which is Walmart. I will admit I have shopped there but I was never a huge advocate of the superstore. The only good thing about the place is its prices. But did you ever think of why they are so cheap? Its not reality. But when you are forcing people in China and other countries to work all fucking day for barely nothing under horrible circumstances you can make it your reality I guess. That's Walmart for ya!

This company is essentially the largest in the world and with profits way past the millions no wonder they have so much power! If you love Walmart and support them than here are just a few fun facts that might change your views:

- their employees get paid crap and can't even take care of their families. Never mind, health care. Walmart designed its health plan so that no one could even afford to take it. This resulting in you paying for it! That's right. All these employees are forced to go on government programs that all you taxpayers are paying for. In fact, Walmart suggests that they do!

- It has also been known for racial discrimination and humiliating its employees. Thats a place I want to work!

- If CEO's are making close to $30 million a year and employees are making just under the federal poverty line, I think there is a problem!

- The company is also a supporter of violence. Yep! When you have crimes, rapes and shootings going on in your parking lots worldwide and you do nothing about it than I figure you support this behavior. Having camera's put up is a start. But when you hire no one to work them than what is the point!

- Walmart has been known to hiring illegal immigrants to clean their stores at night and locking them in. Oh thats fun!

- The chain has put hundreds of local business' out of business resulting in cities and towns going bankrupt. What the fuck ever happened the idea of community?

- The amount of money Walmart receives to build new stores is ridiculous. That money could go to schools, funding for programs and local commerce.

You see, if Walmart is making so much money, and it is, you would think they would have no problem paying and respecting their workers what they deserve. You also would think they would pay to have the best security so that consumers would be safe and feel safe shopping at their stores. This is not the case. Their commercials are bullshit and their company morals are not worth a dime. All they care about is money, power and control. If you can't see that than I feel sorry for you.

I for one will not shop at Walmart ever again. There is really no need to when there are a million other stores to shop at. Better ones at that. I am convinced it is evil because the idea was based on one of the major problems in this country. All the CEO's that ever worked their term along the years are assholes and don't have any heart or soul. Modern day slavery is what they are all about and I will not support that. You know, the fact that they have the lowest prices can have a psychological effect on people. You need something, you want it and your going to get it. Good example is Black Friday. The Walmart right by me in Farmingdale had a death due to crowds of people rushing in the store to shop. That poor security guard got stomped on over and over. You people are fucking nuts!! I hope that stupid toy for your kid or that TV you just had to have was worth killing someone for. The whole situation makes me sick.

Look at what our government and big business has done to you all. Its like some of you aren't even humans anymore. Is there any compassion left in the world? Are people strong enough to stand up for themselves these days? Why are we letting this happen? I am strong enough to fight. I know there are others who are strong as well. If we have to be the ones to lead everyone else than so be it. If we have to push the weak to do what is right, than thats fine with me. Don't try to stop me and don't get in my way. When I talk you will listen and I will not stop at ignorance and stupidity. The time is now. Its time to revolt and evolve for change.

http://www.bluegold-worldwaterwars.com/

http://www.walmartmovie.com/

http://wakeupwalmart.com/

What Will We Do Then?

Why do people sometimes shut out information that could help them? Aren't we as humans supposed to grow and evolve as we get older? Change is a part of life. If you want to fight it go ahead but I guarantee your life will not be fulfilled. Why choose a life of ignorance? How could you not want to know what is going on around you? So many questions....

I am at a point in my life where living the best I can and making a difference is important to me. Not that it ever wasn't, but right now I am going through many changes. When I was young it was art, music, school, relationships, drugs...this was my way of learning and experimenting in the world. I sucked in the knowledge like a sponge. I will admit, there were a lot of things I didn't know. Now that I am older the world is a different place to me. I see things in a different view. I realize that there are issues in the world, and this country, that are destroying all of us. Whether you want to agree with me or not, its true. It really upsets me.

I cannot just turn my feelings off nor will I keep my mouth shut because people don't want to listen. I will not give up. I don't preach and I don't force anything on anyone. I just want to share important information with the people around me so that their lives can benefit as well. Is that so wrong? If I won the lottery I bet people wouldn't mind if I gave them some of it. So why can't they take positive information and advice if it will make their lives richer. I don't get it.

Even though I am going vegetarian that doesn't mean I want everyone around me to change as well. But what I do hope for is that what I have to share will encourage people to change. Only you can change who you are. I can only inspire you to be a better person. (and yes, we can all be better people) My beliefs are my beliefs and people can agree or disagree. But facts are facts. If you don't see that than you are ignorant and not as smart as you should be. If you know something is bad for you and you can easily choose the better option why wouldn't you? I really feel bad for people who are so comfortable in how they live that they shut themselves off to the world. No growth, no change and certainly no gain in happiness. This is not the life that I want.

I cannot help expressing myself on something that I am passionate about. I have always been this way. For the last couple of years I have been an advocate of natural and organic foods. I currently live my life the healthiest I have ever lived it. I choose to only put organic, healthy food in my body. Is that wrong? I choose to support animals and their rights instead of eating them. You want to eat meat, fine, than at least eat organic. If not, than you are choosing to eat a tortured, chemical injected, diseased animal. How can people know this and still continue their eating habits? How do they have the heart to support this behavior? I may not have control on what you do with your life but what I do have is the right to not respect your choices. If people only knew how ugly they really are....

I understand that getting involved in such issues will result in disappointment half the time. That will not stop me. It may upset me but that is what I have to deal with. And I do. Honestly, it only makes me want to fight more, share more and speak more. I realize that I will need to give up on some people after I get shot down. Fine. I tried. It only pushes me toward the next person in my journey. I am sick of hearing "I don't care". It's enough already. What if everyone said they didn't care about you. The difference: we humans have power and animals don't. They can't defend themselves or speak up for what they want. Why should they suffer for our taste buds? Why should they be murdered for fashion? What gives us the right to take their lives? There is no reason and we don't have the right!

I just want to make a difference in the world. If I can help my friends and family than I have done some good. I don't mean to preach my beliefs or choices but I will share what I know with the people in my life. I love a lot of people and all I want for them is to be happy and healthy. Most of them are not living this way. Whether they say they are happy or not...ignorance is bliss, I guess. Not my bliss. I live in the real world where it is not such a great place. A world that is craving love and care so much that it is dying. This country needs a wake up call. There are people like me out there doing their part and fighting every day for what they believe in. When change comes around and its enough to really make a difference, our work has been done.

Some people just learn too late. Others may never learn. Diseased minds only add to the negative energy on this planet. We can only help cure them with knowledge and love. Eventually the earth will lose its desire to live. What will we do then?

Never Give Up

Lately, my mind has been running me over. My thoughts consume every day, every hour and eventually every minute. Is this normal? I don't know because I am not sure if normal exists. But what I do know is that all my life I have been a passionate person. I am either hot or cold, crazy or sane. Very rarely am I in the middle with a question mark over my head. I know who I am. So I live with it. But every now and then...it gets to me. Never ending thoughts.

I feel so strongly about the changes I have been making in my life recently. I seem to be heading in a fresh, new direction and it feels right to take the path that I am. The more I think about what is really going on in this country the more I want to disappear. There are so many people that are blind to the truth. They just need to open their eyes and look.

Our healthcare is down the drain, our money is all gone, we are still at war, people can't get jobs, disease haunts millions each day, animals get tortured and killed, too many people are overweight and unhealthy, murderers and rapists continue to succeed, two people in love cannot marry and we are slowly losing our rights as free americans. That doesn't sound like a great country I want to live in. We are constantly tricked into buying harmful medications, lied about the food we are eating and being brainwashed into thinking that its the best country in the fuckin world! Wake up people! In order to really change things we need each other. All of us. Why is this so hard?

How can someone see an animal get killed then eat it?

Would you kill it yourself?

How can people eat meat and poultry when they know its pumped with chemicals and tortured memories?

Why not just choose organic?

How can someone have the option to buy organic and natural but choose Devil Dogs?

How can the government allow a bio-chemical company to patent the soy bean? This is crazy!

How is it possible that we all could lose the ability and the right to have an organic farm?

Why in the world would the people in power want to evolve its people in the wrong direction?

Why litter when you can throw something in the trash?

How can someone, with no remorse, torture and abuse an animal?

Why is it that when a person, especially a celebrity, gets raped or abused we all hear about it?

But when animals do, its hidden and not cared about.

How did this country turn into a horrible leach that sucks the life and power out of everything?

You know something. About 90% of the products out there on the shelves are not meant to be eaten. They are filled with additives, chemicals and scientific experiments. Is that what you want to put in your body? There is a healthier version of just about anything and everything out there, I promise. They taste better and don't do any harm. Do some good for yourself, your family and friends and your children most of all. They are going to be stuck living on this planet even when we are no longer here. Give them the information they need and the love they can't live without and they will go far. You make the biggest impression.

Enough with the greed. I am so sick of it. Some of you want everything you get your hands on and its disgusting. Others want to be able to hold the remote at all times. Do you enjoy them playing God? I don't.

I want every living creature on this planet to have a right to live. If they did we wouldn't be eating them. How would you like it if someone injected you with chemicals that made you so big your legs couldn't keep you up. Then put you in a large dirty area with so many other people the place felt like an outhouse. Feed you cheap food that is the opposite of what your body needs to be healthy. Weeks go by that feel like months and then a bunch of people you don't know come and take you away. And for most of you comes torture. So on top of being drugged and totally out of your mind due to the shit and piss you've been living in, you get hit, kicked, thrown, stepped on and manhandled toward death. All this just so another person can eat you.

One day it can be really great to live here. But it's not going to happen if you don't change. Who knows how much damage I have already done to my body in the past living the life I was. Its never too late. The sad thing is, there are people out there who are so much worse than me. A lot of them are the ones who are not giving in. We all know a few....probably more. I hate it. It forces me to slowly lose respect.

I dream of a place that is green with foliage, not greed.

I imagine land that is untouched, fertile and ready to give life.

I hope that one day the air will truly lift us up instead of bogging us down.

I want all of us to take a stand like we never have before and finally take them down.

I need this to be our land...a land where we are free to roam and eat what the earth gives us.

I fear that we won't make it........but my pride will never give up.